I'm Not Alone

Lately I'm thinking about something related to my present condition... There are so many thoughts, concerns and worries... I even don't know why God let me go into this condition... it wasn't my choice and absolutely not something I asked for... and why can't I be / do just like others in my second family? Why can't I be succeed like them?

...Then I chatted with a woman, she is going through a similar situation like me, but she had passed her critical time I guess, so now she can fully surrender it to God while she is keep doing her best and still hoping for the next best. While me? I guess this is my critical point =p I have a lot of questions and "what if"... and also "if only". My imagination can be a bit wild sometimes =p But I can see that the only choice I could pick right now is just surrender...

And just now, I remembered one of my old friend who has a little bit similar condition, so I texted her and she confirmed about what she feels and think, the same like I do... We strengthened each other and agreed to keep our hope in Him...

It's a relieve to know that we are not alone in the journey... There are other people who experiencing the similar condition and that moves me to keep striving and not running away... and that's the beauty of God's family... we acknowledge each other and we help each other... It's one special blessing for me =)

Thank You Dad... ^_^

Believe in the BUT

"Most assuredly, I say to you that you will weep and lament, but the world will rejoice; and you will be sorrowful, BUT your sorrow will be turned into joy"
(John 16:20 - KJV)

Weeping and lamentation are common for everyone in certain parts of life. Maybe it is when we lost someone we love, when our best friend disappoint us, when our beloved one betrays us, when we lose our job, when we get unfair or injustice acts from others... The list could go on and on...

One thing to remember is that we live in a fallen world because of sin. BUT we must keep in mind that God still has control over our life.

We may fall BUT we have the ability to rise again.
We may stumbled BUT He will help us to step back again.
We may become weak BUT His love and words are our very own strength.
We may feel that we lose hope BUT our future is still in His hands
We may feel despair BUT He is able to turn our mourning into joy if we let Him to

There are things that happen out of our control, and we can't predict precisely about tomorrow, not to mention years ahead today... BUT we can trust our life in our Father, whose Love has been proven through His Son, Jesus Christ... The Only Son that He gave us to be a Savior, so He can live in us and we live in Him, as a part of His Kingdom, His children... He never leaves us alone...

"Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart, All you who hope in the LORD."
(Psalm 31:24 - KJV)

Be strong and hold on to His unfailing promises!

Ultimate Love Will Set You Free

I don't feel a thing
No 'cause I don't need to
I'm just okay
If numb is a normal thing to live

Few things had happened in the past
Got the hurt, the anger and disappointment
...and I just couldn't bear another one
I made a promise not to let my heart be broken again

So I let others know that I was tough
...that I was strong and happy
and my life was just good enough
...for myself

Leaving the dreams and bitterness
I was building the defense system
Hoping that it would be enough to keep away others from hurting me
...enough to make them know that they can't take advantages of me

I was right...
No strangers dare enough to interfere
It seems what I've been set up has made me safe
...but slowly my heart is turning to numb...

I can't laugh
I can't cry
My defenses have frozen my heart
It's not only closed the gate from tears, but also from love

Father help me...
I've made a mistake...
What I meant to protect myself has crushed my own ability to feel
Heal me 'cause You're the only One who can...

Nothing can erase the previous journey...
...nor the memories...
But heart can be restored and renewed
When the ultimate Love comes and washes the pain away

Apart from You I stood alone
Apart from You I gave my best efforts
Apart from You... they meant nothing
Now I know... Apart from You... I can't do a thing...

False love can make you cry
False love can make you laugh
But only true Love can set you free
True love can make you able to discern the right from wrongs

Father I open my heart gate
Fill me with Your True Love...